like when you could still say "when i grow up"
like when decisions didnt take so much consideration. of weighing pros and cons.
fuck. i hate stress. i used to never stress about anything.
i actually think somethings eating me from the inside.
stupid stomach ulcers. die die die.
my future is just so there right now. like a tangible thing i have to grasp or ignore. what the fuck am i doing. god. i should not be given the responsibility of this decision.